Grimly Hopeful

January 27, 2010 by  
Filed under In Vitro

By: Rosy Barren

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So my 4 beautiful eggs have now become two tiny perfect embryos.  They actually aren’t so perfect in technical terms; they are a “C” and a “B”.  Without giving too much information that would bore you, they grade your eggs, “A” being the healthiest and strongest.  So, I’m happy that I have something, and sad that after all that I’ve been through, it looks like I’ll just get one shot at pregnancy from this round.  A lot of people come away with multiple embryos that they can freeze for future tries.  This would have been ideal as IVF has a high price tag- $15K.  So not only is there the emotional heart-breaking pressure but financial stress, to boot.

I refuse to dwell; it is what it is and when I go in for my transfer tomorrow, I just hope there are still two waiting for me.


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4 Responses to “Grimly Hopeful”
  1. Good luck! Good luck! Good luck! Yes, I still get bummed about the price tag, and I need to do some research into an IVF lobby, b/c insurance really should cover it. I don’t understand how they say yes to Viagra but no to Fertility. Don’t get me started though, it makes me so mad!

  2. Rosy says:

    @etc at Fierce and Nerdy
    Thanks! My insurance covers the drugs which is helpful but it only covers a certain dollar amount, I’ve already burned through a lot of that because what they don’t tell you when you do IVF is that you may purchase all your drugs, start the process and then have a cancelled round due to lack of follicles etc. Ahh well, let’s hope this is the one. And yeah, why Viagra- now you got me started.

    And I don’t think I got to congratulate you on your 6 month old, that’s inspiring! Whenever I go online to look for the positive stories, the ones to inspire me to keep going, I can’t find them because I imagine once one gets pregnant, she doesn’t care to go back and write about it.

  3. @Rosy
    You are so lucky. Neither of our insurance programs would cover one bloody cent, but I imagine that will change as the parental population ages up and people start demanding it.

    What really upsets me is that most government insurance programs cover it almost in full, so politicians have no reason to get behind it for others. Grr!

    I like inspirational stories, too. And I noticed that, too. A lot of women blog non-stop when they’re trying to conceive, but then stop when they finally succeed. Part of it is having less time, the other part of it is the guilt you feel when you’ve finally managed to conceive but your online friends haven’t. You don’t want to inadvertently hurt people…

  4. Rosy says:

    I don’t think people should feel guilty, although I get why they do, it’s so nice to hear an inspiring story when you are in the middle of it all.

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