By: Brandy Black

Everything was going along as normal this Saturday morning.  S. was at the table eating breakfast, P. and B. sat in their bouncy chairs watching her make faces at them and Susan, Paola, and I were eating, plugging pacifiers and getting juice upon request when suddenly Susan jumped up from the table and pointed out that something was wrong with B.  We looked over and her face was red, her eyes huge, mucus running down her nose and it was clear she couldn’t breathe.  Susan tried to grab her but she was clipped into her chair, three of us raced to unhook her, Paola very softly reminded us to stay calm.  Susan flipped her over and patted her back.  In a panic I said “Give her to the nurse.” (Lucky for us we were able to choose a certified nurse as our au pair.) She handed her over and Paola continued to do what Susan had been doing.  We heard a cry and B. was breathing again.  The whole thing probably lasted no more than 10 seconds but it was the most terrifying moment a mom could face.  The worst of it is we have no idea what happened.  One minute she was fine and the next she couldn’t breathe.

I have said many times that the worst of having three kids is that three times as many bad things can happen.  I know this is the dark side but it’s hard enough to keep one alive and healthy.  We’ve been staring at Bella all day.  Watching her chest rise and fall while she sleeps peacefully.  I hate that I only have so much control over protecting my children that things can just happen.  I hate SIDS.  I worry all the time about my children and just when I begin to relax I am reminded that I shouldn’t.  Life is precious.  We are lucky to have each other.  We never know when breath will be taken away from us.

I guess I should be thankful for the warning and the reminder to love hard and never miss the opportunity to say I love you or thank you or you mean the world to me.

So to my family I love you!

To my wife thank you for saving our daughter’s life!

To Paola thank you for keeping B. alive and bringing the calm to our household!

You all mean the world to me! 


  1. says

    Scary stuff. Are you going to the doctor today just to check her out? Was she turning blue or just holding her breathe while she pooped or got saliva down the wrong side of the throat? Sounds like red face is better than blue face. So glad it all worked out for you and the family. Nothing scarier than breathing issues in a little one. Again, glad all is well. I would have been a wreck. Glad Paola is a nurse and was calm.

  2. Brandy Black says

    She was only red faced not blue, all is ok now although we are obsessed with watching her sleep just in case. The doctor said she thinks it was from spitting up. I just can’t wait to get through this first year.

  3. Tanya Dodd-Hise says

    OMG Brandy how scary! This actually brought tears to my eyes, knowing how utterly incapacitating and frightening that moment must have been. So glad she is well…and so glad you all were there and have each other :)

  4. John Jericiau says

    Even at 5 and 4, I’m still checking for moving chests on the boys. And making sure their airways are clear of blankets and toys at night. Glad you made it through a scary time.

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